B: oat meal, apple - 220
S: 1 graham cracker, apple sauce - 90
L: granola bar, apple - 240
S: 1 graham cracker, apple sauce - 90
D: grilled cheese 200, 1/2 grape fruit 50, carrots 75, dip 75 = 400
Total: 1040
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Wednesdays are tough
Slept through the night last night for the first time in a LONG time. Thanks to NyQuil anyway. I will be doing that again tonight for sure. No bad dreams or anything!
So I think I ate too much today. I just feel so full.
B: oatmeal, small apple - 215
S: 2 cups popcorn, 1/2 apple - 125
L: granola bar, apple - 235
S: 1 cup cheez-its - 250?
S: 2 hershey's kisses - 50
D: Chicken breast, lettuce, parm. ceaser salad - ~300 maybe?
Total: about 1200 I'm guessing.
Gym: 3 miles, ~250 calories burnt, 35 minutes
I've been reflecting. I'm not so upset about my recent relationship ending, I went into that conversation prepared for that outcome. I realized what I am upset about is not being wanted, being rejected - not about loosing him as a person/relationship. (Although, he is a wonderful guy! We just didn't work) I'm usually the one who ends relationships. The last time I was dumped was at least 6 years ago. I know - get off my high horse. But it's a feeling I wasn't prepared for, however it is a beneficial feeling seeing as everyone needs a healthy dose of reality.
Geez, I sure need to get over myself eh?
Tomorrow:
B: Oatmeal, 1/2 grape fruit - 220
S: ?
L: Granola bar, apple - 235
S: ?
D: Lettuce wrap probably.
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Haha, my roommate just informed me that her boyfriend's devilishly handsome cousin has been wanting to ask me out for a long time now. And seeing as I am single now - they're trying to set us up on a date. Well, he is a teacher...
So I think I ate too much today. I just feel so full.
B: oatmeal, small apple - 215
S: 2 cups popcorn, 1/2 apple - 125
L: granola bar, apple - 235
S: 1 cup cheez-its - 250?
S: 2 hershey's kisses - 50
D: Chicken breast, lettuce, parm. ceaser salad - ~300 maybe?
Total: about 1200 I'm guessing.
Gym: 3 miles, ~250 calories burnt, 35 minutes
I've been reflecting. I'm not so upset about my recent relationship ending, I went into that conversation prepared for that outcome. I realized what I am upset about is not being wanted, being rejected - not about loosing him as a person/relationship. (Although, he is a wonderful guy! We just didn't work) I'm usually the one who ends relationships. The last time I was dumped was at least 6 years ago. I know - get off my high horse. But it's a feeling I wasn't prepared for, however it is a beneficial feeling seeing as everyone needs a healthy dose of reality.
Geez, I sure need to get over myself eh?
Tomorrow:
B: Oatmeal, 1/2 grape fruit - 220
S: ?
L: Granola bar, apple - 235
S: ?
D: Lettuce wrap probably.
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Haha, my roommate just informed me that her boyfriend's devilishly handsome cousin has been wanting to ask me out for a long time now. And seeing as I am single now - they're trying to set us up on a date. Well, he is a teacher...
Monday, March 8, 2010
8 Miles!
Just got back from the gym. Did my first 8 mile run :) 8 miles, 950 calories burned, ~94 minutes. I feel pretty good.
Yes, I took a picture :)
I hope I don't feel like crap tomorrow. Going out with some girlfriends tonight. That'll be fun.
So here's what I ended up eating today:
b: cereal w/milk, grapefruit - 260
s: 1/2 cup of cereal - 75
L: granola bar, apple - 220
s: 1 cupcake (I hate when kids bring in cupcakes for their birthdays! I have to eat it because we do a group snack time, and I have to model...) - 200
s: 3/4 a power bar - 165
D: lettuce wrap; provolone, turkey, sprouts, about 10 carrots and dip, handful of chips and dip - 350
Total: about 1270. This is all estimated, I'm not positive about any of it. But, seeing as I burnt 900 calories today - I'm in the green. Woot.
Yes, I took a picture :)
I hope I don't feel like crap tomorrow. Going out with some girlfriends tonight. That'll be fun.
So here's what I ended up eating today:
b: cereal w/milk, grapefruit - 260
s: 1/2 cup of cereal - 75
L: granola bar, apple - 220
s: 1 cupcake (I hate when kids bring in cupcakes for their birthdays! I have to eat it because we do a group snack time, and I have to model...) - 200
s: 3/4 a power bar - 165
D: lettuce wrap; provolone, turkey, sprouts, about 10 carrots and dip, handful of chips and dip - 350
Total: about 1270. This is all estimated, I'm not positive about any of it. But, seeing as I burnt 900 calories today - I'm in the green. Woot.
Monday - 124
Today I start my full time student teaching. For the next 9 weeks, it's full time job, zero pay. Wonderful. I will be working a few hours though still with my nanny job.
All the make-up in the world could not cover my haggard eyes this morning. Crying + not sleeping a single wink = me looking like a puffy zombie. Wonderful start to the day. Plus, I feel absolutely miserable. I have this cough that involved hacking up crap, so very attractive. Oh well - still planning an 8 mile run today. I have some feelings to pound out.
Again, my dreams were laden with unhappiness. I dreamt that my family basically "broke up" with me. They took away my bed and made me give most of the space in my bedroom to my sister. Then they made me sleep on the floor in my sisters room. They never invited me to family meals, or saved me any food. I remember just feeling so angry and hurt by them, yelling at them for not including me - but they just ignored me. That sucked.
Goal today; stay busy. I hope to finish the Twlight series in the next few weeks. Today's plan is to go to school, hit the gym after wards, come home shower, eat dinner, study for a few hours for my text, then be in bed by 10 reading. Repeat all week plus or minus the gym.
B: 1/2 grape fruit, raisin bran/milk, tea, 260
S: at preschool ?
L: yogurt, granola bar - 240
S: at preschool?
S: 1/2 power bar before my run - 140
D: Chicken Caesar salad, garlic bread - 350
All the make-up in the world could not cover my haggard eyes this morning. Crying + not sleeping a single wink = me looking like a puffy zombie. Wonderful start to the day. Plus, I feel absolutely miserable. I have this cough that involved hacking up crap, so very attractive. Oh well - still planning an 8 mile run today. I have some feelings to pound out.
Again, my dreams were laden with unhappiness. I dreamt that my family basically "broke up" with me. They took away my bed and made me give most of the space in my bedroom to my sister. Then they made me sleep on the floor in my sisters room. They never invited me to family meals, or saved me any food. I remember just feeling so angry and hurt by them, yelling at them for not including me - but they just ignored me. That sucked.
Goal today; stay busy. I hope to finish the Twlight series in the next few weeks. Today's plan is to go to school, hit the gym after wards, come home shower, eat dinner, study for a few hours for my text, then be in bed by 10 reading. Repeat all week plus or minus the gym.
B: 1/2 grape fruit, raisin bran/milk, tea, 260
S: at preschool ?
L: yogurt, granola bar - 240
S: at preschool?
S: 1/2 power bar before my run - 140
D: Chicken Caesar salad, garlic bread - 350
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Tired
Hold my hand while you cut me down
it had only just begun but now it's over now
and you're in the heat of moments with your heart playing up cold
I'm between the middle watching hastiness unfold
in my eyes you were smiling in the spotlight dancing with the night
when I fell off your mind
I'm tired of trying
your teasing ain't enough
fed up of biding your time
when I don't get nothing back
and for what, and for what, and for what
when I don't get nothing back
Boy, I'm tired
~Adele
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As predicted. Wrong pages... I haven't cried over a guy in years and years. Damn, why did I have to like him so much? Looking forward to when I can turn this page and start over. Let's hope it happens quickly, I'm to busy to be this sad.
it had only just begun but now it's over now
and you're in the heat of moments with your heart playing up cold
I'm between the middle watching hastiness unfold
in my eyes you were smiling in the spotlight dancing with the night
when I fell off your mind
I'm tired of trying
your teasing ain't enough
fed up of biding your time
when I don't get nothing back
and for what, and for what, and for what
when I don't get nothing back
Boy, I'm tired
~Adele
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As predicted. Wrong pages... I haven't cried over a guy in years and years. Damn, why did I have to like him so much? Looking forward to when I can turn this page and start over. Let's hope it happens quickly, I'm to busy to be this sad.
Sunday
B: 1/2 grapfruit, oatmeal, tea - 210
L: Lettuce wrap; turkey, provolone, sprouts, lettuce - 150
S: Chips, salsa - 200?
D: Pizza
Meeting up with the boyfriend for dinner (thus the pizza). I have a lot on my mind about me being unhappy, and I hope we can fix it, because he's pretty great. Our relationship is void of any affection or emotion. From him anyway, I try to bring those things - but it's like hitting a dead end every time. I feel like I'm in this way more then he is. I'm wanting something more serious, if he doesn't - then sadly we are on the wrong page. it seems like he doesn't care much about this as a "relationship". I feel like I'm there for little play dates and sex. No relationship aspects of it. I can't imagine him wanting to spend a weekend with me - and I don't like that feeling. I want someone who wants me equally.
The weekend wasn't too bad calorie wise... went out for my roommates birthday Friday night. Shared some garlic bread and a calzone with a friend, then proceeded to have drinks. We ordered Jimmy Johns around 3 am, but I don't' think I had any. I had a ton of fun though! Met some really cool people - A few pictures from the birthday party :)
Off to study for my teaching licensure test. Fun filled day.
L: Lettuce wrap; turkey, provolone, sprouts, lettuce - 150
S: Chips, salsa - 200?
D: Pizza
Meeting up with the boyfriend for dinner (thus the pizza). I have a lot on my mind about me being unhappy, and I hope we can fix it, because he's pretty great. Our relationship is void of any affection or emotion. From him anyway, I try to bring those things - but it's like hitting a dead end every time. I feel like I'm in this way more then he is. I'm wanting something more serious, if he doesn't - then sadly we are on the wrong page. it seems like he doesn't care much about this as a "relationship". I feel like I'm there for little play dates and sex. No relationship aspects of it. I can't imagine him wanting to spend a weekend with me - and I don't like that feeling. I want someone who wants me equally.
The weekend wasn't too bad calorie wise... went out for my roommates birthday Friday night. Shared some garlic bread and a calzone with a friend, then proceeded to have drinks. We ordered Jimmy Johns around 3 am, but I don't' think I had any. I had a ton of fun though! Met some really cool people - A few pictures from the birthday party :)
Off to study for my teaching licensure test. Fun filled day.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Wednesday - ???
Have not weighed myself today, I should not be weighing every day - it is a bad obsession!
Had a short day at preschool, and now I get the rest of the afternoon off! lucky me! Already went to the gym, did 5.25 miles. Ran for 1 hour. :) Burnt about 600 calories.
B: Raisin bran w/ milk, banana 260
S: few pretzels, half an apple - 130
S: 1/2 an energy bar before my run - 140
L: lettuce wrap, salami, cheese, sprouts - 120
That sits at 700 I still need some carbs to energize after my long run, I may have peanut butter toast, I may not. I'm not hungry at all.
Don't know about dinner, heading down to visit my dad and then my boyfriend this evening, so whatever happens happens. I have plenty of calories left since I burnt quite a few during my work out.
Had a short day at preschool, and now I get the rest of the afternoon off! lucky me! Already went to the gym, did 5.25 miles. Ran for 1 hour. :) Burnt about 600 calories.
B: Raisin bran w/ milk, banana 260
S: few pretzels, half an apple - 130
S: 1/2 an energy bar before my run - 140
L: lettuce wrap, salami, cheese, sprouts - 120
That sits at 700 I still need some carbs to energize after my long run, I may have peanut butter toast, I may not. I'm not hungry at all.
Don't know about dinner, heading down to visit my dad and then my boyfriend this evening, so whatever happens happens. I have plenty of calories left since I burnt quite a few during my work out.
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